Kenneth Lee McMurdy Sr.

In loving memory of my beloved husband Kenneth Lee McMurdy Sr. who passed away one year ago today May 18th.

Ken

A million times I have needed you

A million times I have cried

A million times I have mourned the loss of us fulfilling our dreams together - having a house full of grandchildren, going back to Maine to climb Mount Katahdin, finishing our cabin, and rocking in our rockers

"Together" on the front porchA million times I have asked - if you

had to be taken - why were we not taken

"Together?"So many times I have heard - "He would want you to go on"In my heart I believe this is true - that you would want me to go on - and to be part of our beautiful children and grandchildren's lives but Dear I have to tell you that going on every day without you in my life is the hardest thing I have EVER had to do.You were my shadow, my rock, and my Love.Nothing can ever be the same without you here as part of our beautiful family.I wish so much that you could be here to enjoy our three precious, beautiful grandchildren.They will miss getting to know the greatest Grandpap that could ever be . . .I miss your huge smile, the funny noises that you were always making, and your hearty unique laugh. I miss your words of caution as I would go out the door. I even miss the volume of the TV being on so loud that it could be heard from outside . . .

Most of all - I miss YOU with all of my heart and soul.People tell me with time the pain will lessen, but with each and every day that passes without you in my life - the pain in my heart and the loneliness in my life has only grown more intense. My life without you is scary and lonely. The day you died, I died with you.I have learned two of the hardest lessons ever to learn:1) Life is not fair2) Never count on tomorrowIt has been one year since you left me, but to me it seems like an eternity since I have seen you or heard your voice. I miss you so much. My heart is broken without you here in my world. Take care dear till we meet again. I love you.